My lovely lady lumps (amongst other things)

Got my ultrasound and my breastesses are all tumor free. YAY! I wasn’t really worried until I had 2 doctors tell me to go get them checked.

Thank goodness for Susan G. Komen for the Cure foundation. If it wasn’t for them making the screen testing/ultrasounds more accessible, I don’t think I could’ve afforded it. The government could definitely learn a thing or two from them and Planned Parenthood about how they run their medical programs. I think getting my PAP smear regularly and having my lady parts examined and taken care of is the only medical maintenance I can afford to keep up because of them. Even getting some lumpy moles examined (I’m a sun tanning brat. i love my sun so constantly check for melanoma) is out of my price range usually.

On another note – but definitely one of the several hundred items on my to-do list – I did the REI compass & map reading class last night, after work! WOOHOO!!  I learnt SO much and the teacher was amazing. You could tell he loved compasses and maps so his enthusiasm was contagious. Class ran late and I didn’t even get home until 10:30pm. My exercise program is going to shit with all these other after-work things I have to do. But I loved learning about the compass and navigating on a trail and shooting a bearing, etc. Now that I know the basics, I’m really wanting to take another (this time outdoors) class with REI but I have no clue how I’ll fit that in my schedule.

It might sound totally nerdy but I actually used to draw compasses when I was a little girl. I was obsessed with ships, sea and anything nautical. I even wanted to join the Navy but my mother said I couldn’t since I was a foreigner.I would spend hours meticulously drawing a compass, taking great care to insert every single degree mark and starting from scratch if it didn’t look perfect or symmetrical. This class brought back some of that interest that I thought I’d lost decades ago.

Now I have to figure out how to compensate for the lost exercise days on my exercise program. Last thing I want to do when I’m just so exhausted and want to just launch myself on my bed and take a 72 hour nap.

As for more hiking: This weekend, going to Ridgecrest to see a friend I haven’t seen in a while and hiking Fossil Falls, which looks pretty rad. It’s so close to Big Pine, I’m tempted to try to see if my car will drive that far. The Eastern Sierras are just SOOOOO gorgeous. I want to move there when I decide to settle down. But if my car were to break down, my trip would have to be on hold since I’m counting on the money I’ll get for selling it for trail money. Don’t know that I’ll even have time to do it. It’s a long drive so want to make it worthwhile. Maybe I’ll stop by the Poppy Reserve in Antelope Valley on the way home…

Also, somehow, I  have to make time to finish Yogi’s PCT handbook and figure out some resupply. I haven’t even had the attention span to get on that yet but seeing everybody on the Facebook PCT pages have theirs all figured out is making me a little worried. Am I not worrying enough? Do I really do want to do this? Will I ever be prepared? Should I just back out now? I don’t like pooping in the woods, I need to learn to pee standing up and I think I’m going to just shave my head…  AAAAHHHHH. MY HEAD IS ABOUT TO EXPLODE with all these thoughts constantly streaming in my head!!! Can you tell? lol

Does anybody else have this or is it just me??


I did my yoga class this morning, which was so nice after my calves were burning after my 11 mile hike yesterday  (with my new Cascadias, mind you, so had blisters from the stiffness which caused me to balance my feet abnormally so I could keep hiking which made my calves that much more sore. Normally 11 miles wouldn’t hurt). And I had some crying and frustration come on during the class but came out so relaxed and, oh, so grateful.

I’m grateful for all the people in my life that have shown nothing but support for this crazy goal of mine to hike the PCT. Most of these people don’t even know what it is but support me unconditionally. Some have offered their homes near the trail, some want to send me packages and some have even donated without asking me  (I hate asking for help, in any form, so this is huge, especially since I really needed it).

I never expected this amount of support. I thought it would be all me, with me having to ignore people – friends and family alike – telling me that I was thinking irrationally. That’s not what happened at all. I’ve yet to have people tell me outright that I shouldn’t be doing this. Most only have safety concerns, which I also have and I have no problem debating that should I not have thought of something I should be concerned about.

I feel like I’m jinxing myself by even writing this but I’m also grateful for how the world seems to be coming together for this goal of mine. My bosses were nothing but supportive when I put in my notice, Everything on my to-do list is happening and my world is whirling with activities – from my exercise program with Anish to scheduling classes to finally facing my dreaded medical to-do list  (getting left breast checked since a doctor thought she felt something to lasering off a gross toe fungus I got from going barefoot at the Grand Canyon communal shower and IUD checkups, etc).

My mind is blown. I can’t believe I actually have these people that care about me and want me to find my place in the world in the weird ways I decide to go about finding it.

I’m blessed. ❤

Weekend Adventures ❤️

Learned so much this weekend. About myself, my physical conditioning and gear. Will go over it all in length after a shower from this weekend.

2 1/2 days with no shower, legs and armpit hair growing unchecked and freezing cold temps, snow and crazy gales. This weekend was the best. Got to see the Eastern Sierras and checked out Red Rock Canyon (CA). Soooo amaaaazing






My bank account is just evaporating into thin air. At least I got my Brooks Cascadia 9s and 10s (I’ve never hiked with the 10s but willing to try them out. I love the 9s though, although they fall apart after about 500 miles) shoes, Outdoor Research Helium II rain jacket, desert shirt, Smartwool base layers, Merino socks and Anker external battery for electronics. Poof! $500 gone though. Just like that.

And that’s just the small stuff. My new (MUCH more lightweight) Big Agnes UL1 Flycreek tent, new Osprey backpack, Zpacks 10 degree sleeping bag (the 20 degree was too cold for me in 15 degree snow conditions when I tested it), Therm-A-Rest ZLite sleeping pad, Black Diamond trekking poles and Ghost Whisperer Down jacket all cost, total, over a grand. I mean, I guess I could’ve used older/heavier items I already had but I think I would sorely regret that.

I’m sure it’ll all be worth it in the long run. I can’t help but feel sick after so many purchases. Some people claim it’s therapeutic to shop. I find it therapeutic to get rid of stuff. I get claustrophobic when my material possessions start exceeding 2 large suitcases and a carry on. Time to get to selling old gear and giving away the rest. That’ll be the next weekend (this weekend, have a 3 day road trip/backpacking trip planned for Big Pines/Bishop, CA area with a friend. It’s going to be a blast!!).